Reflections

It has been almost four years now since I left the last truly abusive relationship I was in. And while and the impact that they things have been bumpy from time to time and things happened that I did not understand, my life is much better. I look back to those days now and wonder who that person was and how I could have allowed myself to get into those types of relationships. It has also been almost a year and a half since I last dated anyone more than once.

I know that even though I have grown and changed in many ways I am still marked by what had happened and I always will be. The scares will always be there and I will always have to deal with them and the impact they will have on my life. To say that it has made me gun shy about being in a relationship is an understatement and yet it is something that I am looking forward being able to do. I have spent the last four years working on myself and working on healing and I am making progress.

I can look out and see the sunshinning and enjoy the sounds of the birds singing again. Life seems to slowly becoming something that reflects normal (whatever that is). I am looking at things I used to do and starting to get back into them again. Some of them things I have not done in almost twenty years. So much is changing and it is great and I thought this moment would never come and yet here it is. Thank God. Thank you God for all that you have done for me and for all the blessings in my life. Have a great day all and God Bless.