Self Acceptance

I want people to accept me for who I am and the question is do I accept myself for who I am. I like to think that I do as I am sure that most people do think they accept themselves. I believe that for the most part I do accept myself and I know that today I certainly accept myself far more than I have ever done before. It is a mark of personal growth to be able to look in the mirror and know that you like the person looking back at you and dare I say love them as well.

I have come to a point in my life when I no longer feel the need to prove myself or justify my actions to anyone. I am me and I am free to live my life, the life I have chosen to live. It has been a long time coming and I have earned that right and I am not going to be apologetic about it in the least. I am having a lot of fun right now working on little projects around the house and getting things fixed that have been waiting far too long. One step at a time and it will all get finished and of course there is the danger that I will tear it all out and start all over because I have changed my mind.

This is the benefit of having left all the abusive relationships behind me and while at this moment I am not involved with anyone I am enjoying my relationship with myself. It is something that I have never done before. I always felt that I needed to be with someone or I was unloved and unwanted, destined to be alone the rest of my life. That lead me to many unhealthy and abusive relationships that not only hurt me, it hurt the people that I cared about most, my kids.

Today I can find myself getting to know myself and accept who I am and I am enjoying this time of my life. I have already spent the last 20 yrs justifying and defending my actions and I am sure there will be people that will still question the way I raised my kids and that is their problem and not mine. The things I do now are things that I find relaxing, recharging and bring me happiness and I feel good about what I am doing. I have plenty of free time and I am getting things done that I have been meaning to get done. I still need to work on balancing my projects and free time so they flow better and everything gets covered. It is getting there and I have time to work on it. Have a great day all and God Bless.