Made a sesarching and fearless moral inventory. This has too be by far the hardestthing that anyone has to do. It wipes away all the false images of ourselves and we lay naked before God. In reality God already knows everything we have already done and I am sure he knows what will happen if we do not change course. The idea behind this is to clear out all the stuff and get it on paper.
By stuff I mean all the good and bad that wehave done in our lives tothat point in time. There are many people that never get through this becuase they cannot handle seeing what they have become as a result of the drugs and alcohol in their lives. We all have this image in our minds of who we are, the fourth step removes that false image of who we think we are and exposes who we really are.
This is a step that should never be done alone and it should always be balanced between good and bad. I have known many people that have gotten drunk over their fourth step. The moral inventory is only going to be as good as our morals at the time will allow it to be. By the time we are ready to do our 4th step we usually at the end of our treatment program and we have a solid support system to back us up.
By the time we are ready to finish treatment we have more than likely regained some of the moral values that we had lost and regained some of the honest wirth ourselves that we had lost. To me the fearless thing was the idea that I was going to be ok when I was done and that was important. There is a great deal of fear when you begin to realize the shear number of people that you have hurt over the years.
When you begin to realize the amount of pain that you have caused yourself and others there is a great deal of fear. Can you ever forgive yourself, will anyone else, will God? All is good and I can assure you that you are never as bad as you think you are. The reason we feel so bad about the things we have done is simply because what we have done goes against our core values. By getting in touch with this we are also able to identify with our core values and that helps us identify with who we really are and that helps us get back to the real person behind the mask. Have a great day all and God bless, I love you all.
This is a journal about recovery from domestic abuse. About growing from being a victim to being a survivor to being a thriver and at peace with myself. I am a survivor of abuse in its many forms. I was abused physically, sexually and emotionally. There have been some that have helped me get through the darkness and into the light. Now, I am helping others to also find the light, for more info on battered men and for help forming a support group: theshapechanger1@yahoo.com
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