Step Five

Admitted to God, to myself and another human being the exact nature of my wrongs. Ok what this isn't is when you have your head in the toilet saying, "God I know I was wrong to do this and I will never do it again." This is an important moment when we have a chance to let go of who we are as a drunk and make room for who we become as an alcoholic.

The first difference is that as a drunk we are still drinking and as an alcoholic we have found recovery. The 5th step for me was vert humbeling becuase I thought I was the absolute worst person that ever existed. When I finished sharingmy 4th step with a priest, he politly nodded and than asked me, "is that all?" Those three words sucked the wind out of my sail and sent my ego on a crash and burn into the ground.

They also sent shivers down my spine of hope that maybe I really was not all that bad. The important thing in doing your 5th step is that you are given a chance to let go of the baggage that you have been carrying around. That baggage can get you drunk faster than anything else ever will. That baggage also keeps you locked in a prison of your own creation and so long as you are in that prison you cannot grow as a person.

If we are going to make it in recovery and have real honest sobriety we need to be able to let go of the things we have done in the past. There will always be those that will always hold our past against us and there is nothing we can do to stop them or change them. The only thing we can do is change ourselves and that ability gives us more power in life than we can ever imagine.

For as we change for the better, those that do not want to change or accept or changes simply drop off in time. In letting go of the past we become reborn into the present and have the ability to become anything we want to become. This is the promise of recovery, that if you let go and let God, miracles will happen. This step gives us back our lives and allows us to have a fresh start and we deserve it after all we have been through.

Everything before this step is about building ourselves up and getting us ready to begin our new life free of alcohol and drugs. We have admitted the we cannot do it, that God can and that I will let him. We have taken an the best accounting of our past life as we can and now we are letting go of our old life. Understand that all the things we have done are still part of who we are it is just that they do not define who we will become.

That is somewthing that we have the freedom to choose for ourselves. We cannot change anything that happened in the past and we have no control over what will happen in the future. The only thing we have control over is how we act in the present and that will shape the future that we live. Have a great day all and God Bless, I love you all.