It's been seven years

Seven years ago today an event happen that would send me in a new direction and change my life forever. Before this event I was a dreamer and not a doer and while I cared about others and had a strong faith it was not solid. I still heald back and was not willing to trust God completely. I was in my second abusive marriage and my life was a wreck and I lived in complete fear on a daily basis.

I had gotten custody of my kids and my than wife turned violent and everything spiraled out of control real fast. All I could do was try to protect my kids the best that I could and I spent many a night curreled up in a corner crying to God asking why I had to go through this. I was working and going to school in another town and I hit a racoon with my car and that was in the shop. It was now winter and I was hacking to hitch hike from Annandale to St Cloud (20 miles) to and from work every day.

Than the event happened my than wife decided that because I was not making enough money for her, the kids and I had to go. She threw us out into the street with no where to go and no way to get there. It was cold and dark and I looked up to God and asked, why? I found a place for my kids to go and I got a ride to St Cloud and went to a meeting. Than I stopped and decided to give up and turn my life over completely to God. Nothing I was doing was working and I had just lost everything.

I was now stand on a street, no kids, no home and no money. I had a job and I was in school and I was still sober. Over the next month I was able to see my kids twice and I was so ashamed for them to see their father homeless. I think over that first month I saw my kids for about 4hrs and unders my pareents supervision. To make matters wose my kids were with their mother and I had taken the kids from her two years earlier becuase they were being abused. I lived every day with the idea that they were going to use this to take the kids away from me and I would never get them back. I did find a place to live after that first month and I did get my kids back.

I just kept turning my life over to God and asking him to use me for his will, whatever that was and I would not question it. Since than my life has been a sieres of ups and downs and it has been heading up since.

1. divorced twice
2. married once
3. engaged twice, one ended in marriage and the other friends
4. built a home for my kids and I
5. finished two college degress
6. started a third
7. ran for public office 3 times
8. became an advocate for men that are victims of domestic violence
9. became an advocate for single fathers as single parents
10 graduated one kid from high school so far and one more to go
11. watched both my kids rent their own homes
12. learned to love again

Out of the darkest things come the brightest events. It has been a wonderful seven years and I would not give up any of it. I am truely blessed to have the people in my life that I do because God brought them to me and blessed me with them as part of my life. Thank you God. Have a great day all and God Bless you, I love you all.