Oddities

The weekend has come to an end and I am enjoying the wondeful weather we are having. I have to because I do not know how much longer it will last. I went down to the lake to see what was new and to look at the duck and geese. They were all forming up getting read to bed down for the night and I was pleasently surprised to see that the Swans were still out. It turned ugly when I noticed one of them was eating a plastic bag that someone had discarded into their area.

I called the DNR and they may or may not be able to do anything about it, I they can and will. I would hate to see one of the swans chock and die on a plastic bag. In some ways it is reflective of the way things go in life becuase we often times see things that look wonderful and when we look beyond the surface we see the ungliness. The hard part comes when you try to get help and it does not come and in the end we have to leave it in God's very capable hands.

That is the hard part becuase we always want to do more and the consiquences for doing more could cause more problems for you than you could have hoped to solve for someone else. Unlike the swans we have the ability to defend ourselves and to do what is right, even when it is scary. Deep down we always know what is right and what we need to do to protect ourselves and yet we fall short much of the time.

I know that for myself that falling short comes from the fear of uncertainty. Wondering if I am doing the right thing or not and what will happen if I do it or if I do not do it. I have had plenty of times when I have trusted God with my life and times when I was afraid to. I know that he has done very well for me when I have let go and let him do what he needed to do in my life. I am at that point again when I know that I am supposed to and can turn it all over to hiim and yet at times I still find it hard.

I know that in my own way of doing things I have screwed up badly in my life. I have failed in my financies and pick women to be involved with that ended up being abusive. I know that he can and does do much better for me when I get out of his way and let him do his thing. The next couple of months will be hard with the holidays and all. The kids are on their own and will be splitting the holidays with their families and the families of their significant others. So that will be something new and I will admit scary and I will jsut have to give it to God and see what happens. I had no choice but to leave the swan in his hands I am sure I can leave my life in his hands as well. Have a great night and God Bless, love yah all.