Happy Thanksgiving

Yesterday was a rough one as I received a couple of bad reviews that left me feeling very hurt and shattered. Yet, I did not give up and continued to move forward with the things that I needed to do. Not out of some misplaced idea of being superman but out of a fight against depression and a desire to not give upon myself. It has been over two years since I left my last abusive relationship and still struggle with myself at times.

I had gotten so used to being put down that even now when someone does and I am not expecting it, all the old tapes begin to play all over again. The hardest part is trying to explain it to those that do not understand because they have nothing to compare it to. I know that I have worked very hard to build a life for myself and for my family. It is a good life and I know that my kids still have their struggles with abuse. I still worry that they will get into an abusive relationship and I am powerless to do anything about it.

All I can do is leave it in God’s hands and be the best example I can be. Then real work is up to them and it always will be. I can only do so much to protect my kids and I wish I could do so much more. Yet I understand that unless they get hurt they will not understand that it can happen to them all over again. Then they will be more alert and hopefully more attentive their feelings and the people around them. Happy Thanksgiving all and may God bless you.