Disappointment is something that most people have a hard time dealing with. Yet when you have gone through the abuse and come to the other side, disappointment seems all that much heavier. You feel like everyone is just waiting to launch on you when you fall short. Than when you do fall short it is so easy to feel that you let everyone down or just plain failed.
Minor set backs seem to become major deals because we are more sensitive to them. After all we have been called failures for so long that we internalize it and make it real. So each set back no matter how minor it seems to others is a major deal to us. There are no easy ways around this and it is something that I have been dealing with for so very long. It is something that has been a major source of frustration for me.
A lot of the time I feel very confident about what I am doing and my place in the world. Yet when a seemingly minor set back occurs it becomes larger than life and suddenly I’m back being scolded by the people that abused me. I am not sure if that will ever go away or if it will at least diminish with time. I can only turn it over to God when does happen and turn to my support system to have my spirits raised. Than I am ready to take on the world again and hopefully I will be stronger the next time.im-breaking-free.blogspot.com
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